» Tuesday, February 9, 2010
just a quick update.
its now 12.21 pm. and im up late again.
why?
still got one big pile of homework to do.
im so sick of procrastinating. my work keeps on and on piling.
i will finish maths tonight. i'll try. but im so so tired ><
these days im mostly with nigel when im free.
ive put aside all other activities or outings.
because he only has one week left, and i guess i gotta make the most of it.
apart from that, had few outings with others aswell.
just not as often as before.
im too tired atm.
shaeggy picked me up frm coll today and we headed out for good catchup sesh.
gotta head back to maths now.
this is just a quick update.
xx
suyin.
i want to be somebody's number one. why am i never good enough?
» Thursday, February 4, 2010
MABEL BRO.
i feel sad. its been well less than a day.
you're already back in aussie.
i keep wondering what you will be doing.
are you at chatty right now? bumming. chilling. thurs late night shopping.
maybe the beach?
or lindfield station listening to music.
cha for tea? gordon lib?
hitting the clubs/casinos late at night/early morning?
bumming around city?
who knows. who knows.
but i wish i was there with you.
it hasn't fully hit me yet. cause now i still have him to keep me sane.
but i really really miss you.
i keep wondering. what you're thinkin of now. cause i cant have conversations with you anymore.
thanks for being the best bro in the world.
always and forever.
it hasn't ended yet. promise.
i guess its gonna be a long eight months.
but min bro has advised me. just this one year.
just study super duper hard.
and i'll be able to enjoy in no time. and reap the rewards.
he said i should be lucky everyone's going. so i can focus on my studies.
i will bro i will.
i'll see all of u at unsw/ uni of syd.
i promise.
» Wednesday, January 27, 2010
hello dear bloggg.sorry ive been a bad blogger. :S
i shall try to feed you more often haha.
and update!
LAST LAST WEEKEND
ONE NIGHT [i forgot which lol]
met mabel's sri kl buddies. a series of unfortunate events it was.
ended up at rainforest for sm drinks n shisha.
ANOTHER NIGHT [forgot again]
met up w close mates for sm drinks n shisha again at dhaven. yeh i had a phase..=s
SATURDAY
blind triple dates at italiannies. who would have guessed. first time i met you. :]
and meeting a bunch of awesome people.
SUNDAY
leo's farewell dinner at sushi zanmai.
LAST WEEKEND
HAPPY 18TH MABEL LONG.
you're one in a million. thanks for always being there.
and all the good times we've shared. xx
FRIDAY
mabel's bd dinner at ThaiThai. stupid restaurant so spicy...gave me a sorethroat :S
then headed to jaafar's for chill sesh and boy is their shisha goood :P
SATURDAY
dinner at The Apartment with nigel :]
SUNDAY
mabel's surprise from leo, nigel and i at TGIF. SOOO FUNNYYY. hahaha il post up the vid in due timee :P LMAOO watched Toothfairy movie after that. verdict? GAY. funny gay.
nevertheless, still gay. do not watch. ._.
unfortunately, missed suyen's farewell. poo :( ilyy. il come visit u next year when im back in ozzie :D i know you'll love it there. xx
RECENTLY
MONDAY
chill sesh at jane's. felt like old times. miss the days where we were problemless and life was all about fun and barbiess. :(
TUESDAY [ie yesterday]
poker night at tux's. twas very very funnn :D me and nigel came second to kwanyee.
not bad not bad hahaa.
CURRENTLY
im LOVING college very very much :D hehe
mamak food is so unhealthy. hmph >:( eat more healthy food at college ppl!
today was a very thinking-ish day for me. quite emo and shit.
not in a good family position atm. :/
the intervention of lying.
thinking what to do for his birthday.
havent been focusing on studies at all. this all changes NOW.
gonna start catching up on homework the whole night tonight. JIA YOU! lol wtf i tink dats how u spell it.
leo left today. :( miss him.
cher is comin in 3 days :DD cant waittt.
i like weekends.
i am being very cautious. i put a shield around me. but i feel as though its slowly breaking down. im scared. really.
im so so broke.
vote jian wei for president.
and finally....
im not missing australia too much anymore. :]
xx
suyin
there's so much i wish i could say and feel. but im so scared. i dont want to end up hurt...
» Friday, January 15, 2010
OMG HIII.hahaha. ok im blogging now.
sorry for not blogging for like...weeks -.-
i really wanted to but i was waiting till i find my stupid cable so i can upload the pics.
but alas its been lik...2 wks? and still no sight of cable :(
so i shall update on my hols in another post when i get the pics.
gonna buy a cable tmr hopefully! :D hehe
so now.
i shall blog on...COLLEGE LIFEEE
college. is good :]
but i like the australian system better compared to the malaysian system/
hate listening to stupid lectures the whole day -.- grrghhh. so borrring. all they do is talk. ffs.
guess what. ive studied like more than 50% of their eco syllabus before adi
what i learnt today : the economic problem
and factors of production- land, labour, capital, entrepreneurial skills.
FUCK MAN. gonna ave to sit through this shit. its lik a repetition for me. die zzz.
OH and i cannot for the life of me understand what my accounting teacher is saying.
she is a fucking fob i swear -.- cant speak english for shit.
apart from that. i like college hehe. as joo says "its like a mall!!"
making friends is fun.
today's talk. DAMN FUNNY. hehe.
ive been sleeping lik almost every chance i have now. yes waking up at 6.30 am is not fun :(
sooo tired. i miss holidayss...
kay. me ish tired now.
on another note.
my malaysian accent is coming back! OMGAHHH. save me save me.
hahaha. the girl says LAH like nobody's businesss. malaysian style. :P
ps. i still miss you.
xx
suyin.
» Wednesday, January 6, 2010
my blog is all about what i do and how i feel.occaisonally my opinions on various matters.
its kinda like my diary.
so i have the right to sound self obsessed. baha :P
NEWAYYY
after new years...
SATURDAY
met up w kdu ppl plus jane. got my cartilage piercing hee :D
lunched. city. js us girlies twas a good time.
what do you think of tongue piercing? im probs playing with the thought but iknow im too pussy to do it.
but im psyched on doin a helix. after the cartilage heals. cause it hurts lik a bitcch atm :(
SUNDAY
went to brewball w the weslyans.
my thoughts : when will the pool phase end? bahah its only fun when im ace at it. if not, fuckit.
timtai shops like a girl! bahaha. :P i likeeee.
ps. in my opinion, shoes are what makes a guy cool. oh and his dance moves haha ;P
so save up fo sm good shoes boys!
i like them nikes and adidas. pumas are losers.
speaking of which. i wanna get them high dunks! save bitch, save!
MONDAY
was meant to meet up w ian. but sucha trek lol.
headed up to lise's for some major workout sesh.
IT WAS INTENSE! i love wii fit! after two days and i still feel my arm muscles aching bahaha
boxing is the shitt! which is why i am gnnna start kickboxing classes :D abs baby abs.
TUESDAY
watched 'did you hear about the morgans' w nel.
the movie was boring shit -.- i was lik gna doze off halfway thru it alrdy.
and did some shoppingg. heee :DD i love topshop!!
i would buy everything in there no joke!!
i also like miss selfridge. gosh, am i spendthrift? why god no. just insanely broke.
WEDNESDAY is so happened TODAY !
and this is where my post ends. i am alrdy late. gotta get ready. goin out to hartamas for kickboxing w janewei. i wish i could drive. cherlyn hurry up and get your ass over here! so we can go get license :DD not lookin forward to undangs tho. sucha trekkk. so cbf :( gahh.
bribe no bribe?
college in approx one week. ready bitches? :P
and im out babes.
xx
suyin.
» Tuesday, January 5, 2010
GAHHHHH
i
am
a
frustrated
meerkat.
:(
and there's noone here to talk to atm except minkwonchoi but he is quite useless. [sory bro i still lov u xx]
cheryn/richard wtfuck are you. if you guys are reading this..
come online muthafuckers.
countrycodes are a bitch. how do you call australia?
my life is fuckin a. NOT.
» Sunday, January 3, 2010
im feeling rather nostalgic.
deep down, it hurts.
i know i will probably never see you again.
but im living in denial.
Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.
i wish that was me.
always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh. but i never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry. i guess i'm just missing the old times... miss you.
I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain. Talking to my heart and trying to explain. Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been. Yes I do think about you, every now and then.
i miss those moments we shared. i miss knowing that you will always be there for me. i miss those drunken nights where we talked about anything and everything under the stars, your arms holding me tight and everything felt so right. everytime i drank, it was to forget the pain i felt-knowing i would never see you again. i pretended it would never end. even for one night. i wanted to feel we stood a chance. if we had more time, we would have been able to get to know each other a little better. i was just getting to know you, and you were just getting to know me. i knew the day would come when we would part ways. but yet, i would and will do anything for one more night with you. it pains me every time i see you online- i want to ask you how you've been. but you've moved on. i know that. you told me you're not the type who can stay in love with a girl without seeing her everyday. i havent seen you for quite awhile now. i wish i was you- i wish i could let go that easily. maybe you still think of me sometimes too. who knows? but what hurts the most, and i still can't accept the fact that i will probably never see you again. if we had more time, we were on the verge of something exciting and new. and i never wanted anything more in my life. all i wanted was to stay in your arms forever. i know you cared. i wished you still do. but sometimes distance does not make the heart fonder, instead each day, the feeling of your arms around me starts getting looser and looser. until one day you're gone. till that day, you're all i can think about.
i would do anything for one more night with you.
it hurts knowing of what could have been, but never was.
suyin.
